This memorial website was created in the memory of our loved first born son, Andre Cole who was born in Brisbane, Australia on 17th July 2005. 

Sadly he made his way to heaven before his feet could touch the ground here on earth.


The 17th July 05 is now known as the best and worst day of my life.  Early on the Sunday morning I started getting cramping and was in a lot of pain in my lower back.  A few hours later I also found blood.  I was sent to hospital.

In hospital they told me I was 2-3cm dilated and I was having contractions.  An ultrasound was performed and there was my beautiful boy, happily playing inside my womb.  I didn't know that this was the last time I would see my son alive.  They told me there was at least a 90% chance he would die.  I didn't understand as he was so happy and healthy with a perfect heartbeat on the screen.  They said maybe if I could hold on another 2 weeks there would be a chance.  And then we were left there to wait.

A few hours later my contractions became regular, I was in labour and going to give brith to my son.  A few hours in and the midwife said "you can start to push" and I just said "how do I do that?"  After pushing for a bit I remember her saying "almost there, a few more pushes."  And with that I pushed and he was coming out, but then my waters broke and he got pushed back inside.  I believe it's then that he grew his angel wings although at the time I was none the wiser.

My contractions had stopped and an hour later I was induced and in another hour, I gave birth to my beautiful stillborn son.  I didn't know he had passed until my husband asked if he was...and the midwife said yes.  But it didn't matter and I still wanted to hold him.  I loved him just the same.  As I looked down at him and just wished he would open his eyes and look up at me.  But it wasn't to be.

We spent a little time with him that night and then half of the next day.  It was such a confusing time.  I should have been still pregnant or bragging about my healthy, happy and alive little boy that I just gave birth too.  Unfortunately the next plans I would make for my son were his funeral plans. 

We had his funeral on Friday 22nd July.  He was cremated so he would be at home always with his Mummy and Daddy where he belonged.

Written by his mummy Karen Cole.